sunsetroses

"I don't feel like loving you yet," Mentioned the stars one evening. I was halfway up a ladder With a rug slung over one forearm And a cup of tea. "Oh." Was there much else you can say To an angry galaxy? So I set aside my differences And counted the chance - It was positive I felt. The applause filtered out And the actors swapped recipes In the foyer While the children played on the floor With the dregs. "Do you come here often?" I asked my Doctor. We were sitting on the swing-set in the park. "Only when the grass is wet," He said with a smile. His eyes were kaleidoscopes And I remember his laugh As I melted into obliv

It's all a popularity contest, Honest. We wipe the dreams out of our eyes While rouged cheeks and lips betray our lies; And underneath our perfect skin Is hate, and shit, and sick, and sin. Oh, how I want your face. To share in your disgrace And to fall into your perfect charms Would be perfect tainted bliss. I've never been good at this. I'd give you all my pocket change For one believable kiss. For a moment in time I'd steal the world And hurl it at the stars. This second fails to capture And my attention wavers; Your sexual favours Do nothing for me any more. You are my whore. You just want more. And I need it too. I

I can think of no words To describe how I'm feeling, No words to tell you How my heart is bleeding. How do you tell one so distant That you need them to love you? Instead of reject you, You need them to protect you. I fill up with anger, I breathe till I'm dizzy, My dreams fill your mouth with the words "I am sorry". But I can't let it happen, I can't let you in, I've given you chances again, and again. Oh Father, my Father, The one who began me, I wish I could tell you That your actions shame me. You've left me, you've hurt me, You twist me in your lies; I just want to tell you I see me in your eyes. Every time that I

Perched upon a rumpled bed, Between my lips a cigarette, I survey this smoky room - This Chamber of Regret. I think about the girl I was, Barely two years ago, I didn't know, like I know now, That she would be forced again to grow. That she'd be forced to change her smile For a shaded sigh instead, She did not know that certain things Would now fill her with regret. Nor was she aware that while she slept Fate moved the barriers, it seems. If she had known I think she would have Given up all of her dreams. She did not know the struggling That she would face in days to come. She did not know the prospect Of spending days all

Once bitten, twice shy - Choose whether to fight or fly. Twice around the mulberry bush, Give the jumper one final push. Put the daisies in your posies, Singing "ring-a-ring-a-rosies". I've been pushed, and shoved, and spun, I hope this game is nearly done. The children's voices goad me on, While the demented piano plays its song. A blindfold tight across my eyes To make each new horror a complete surprise. Who to banish and who to trust? I hate this game of "blind-man's-bluff". Musical chairs has got me down, And the jester's stolen my only crown. The player's of the game have left, And abandoned my soul (expectantly bereft)

I watch through eyes that cannot see, Filled with tears that cannot fall, And I survey this broken mess I'm in As I think about the fall. Using fingers, that are numb to touch, I play with boundaries that are not real. I gaze into an empty sky And wonder what I might feel. I have a heart that's pounding steady beats And a mind that forgets to think; So I pick up the empty bottle And take a sip of the tasteless drink. I trail, wordless, through the shattered glass, Treading soundless on echoing floors. Each key I have is missing And won't open the unlocked doors. So I sink into my crowded chair And try to close my eyes - It's

City lights grazed the bottom of the cloud And dyed it red against the night. But the shade from a lingering tree Brought me comfort in the fading light. The wind passed by - Curling fingers through my hair, And I was reminded by the memories Of people who are no longer here. The clock struck solemn lonely notes To peers (to me) unknown, As estranged passers-by Found their own way home. My seat was a castle As I sat with my dreams. The boundaries of my reality Were bursting at their seams. And dusk betrayed my solitude; I was but a silhouette against the bark, Surrounded by simple wishes And the steady growing dark. Would

With eyes designed to see at dusk - I stumble through the night. I cannot see the demons, nor the angels bathed in light. Like wearing eternal rose tinted lenses, I cannot see the truth. Not even when it's in front of me. Not even when there's proof. Oblivious to mankind's faults, I have a smile for all. But the truth is, when the jig is up, no one'll catch me as I fall. The sky was bright again last night, and I dreamt the future as I slept. Such a dark and lonely prospect that, when I woke, I sat and wept. Sorrow for the human faces - regret for all that's not been said. Trapped inside these fearful longings. Trapped inside my tort

Perchance I walked into a dream - Somberly trailed the misty pines - And wandered slow unto the stream Of memories forever lost in time. My bare feet sank through clumps of dew And ivy clung tight against my hair; All my thoughts screamed out for you... I was caught against a wall that wasn't there. In the silent, vague shades of grey, I found no comfort in my song. I thought everything would be okay - I was mistaken. I was confused. I was wrong. I probably slept for but a while,, But years had passed for me. A century without your smile Before the darkness set me free. Perchance I slowly shook free of slumber And peered into the morning

Remember me as I am. Each day brings a different me - Different eyes through which to see. Brand new pain inside my heart, And hope restored with a brand new start. Each breath I breathe changes me too, There is no eternal me or you. Nothing settles, nothing's the same, One minute I lose, the next I gain. I moulded by the steps I take So they accuse me of being fake. They can't see, but their lives too, Change with every thing they do. Bring recall to this second here, With each word you read time disappears. Each line to you is a new direction - Whether you dismiss it or take a closer inspection. Like a leaf caught in a chan